It has been a while since I’ve blogged. Amazingly enough I’ve seen miraculous things in the past few weeks that have affected my life in dramatic ways. I’ve done things for others. I’ve done things with others. I’ve done things to help the greater good of humanity. All I know now is the balancing structure of success in a relationship, a success in business, a success in my life. Slowly but surely I’m heading there. But it has to now “…head toward that vision of my future self, at breathless, reckless speed, and to the exclusion of all else. Don’t slow down, don’t take time to analyze things, don’t consider the cost. Stop making other people comfortable. Doing so keeps you small. It is time to be magnificent.”
~Z.P.
A wondrous thing in life is to see the beauty in nothing to see beauty in everything. I’ve slowly strayed away from that aspect of my life. As building a business goes on I’ve been ultimately lost in my doing that I forgot what it meant to be me.
Again I looked to techniques and tools, which are amazingly effective, but I forgot why I was here. A connection had become lost from the passion of my work, to my “running the business.” I lost all forms of what it meant to be totally aware of the now. After a hey-day of mistaken decisions this passed week, I realize that my 3 steps back was indeed a neccessity to move forward. But the question remains, “how far have i gone forward?” I have nothing tangible to hold in my hand. Will I ever? What clarifies me as something? As being somebody? What clarifies my existance? It’s not the idea of being a coach. It’s not the idea of being madly in love with yourself. What clarifies my existance? What am I seeking? What am I searching for? Will this again be another failed attempt to live a life full of potential or another failed attempt at something I want? The feeling of coaching is great. But there’s something bigger than all this. There’s something bigger than my life. There’s something about being on that stage that I want so bad but can’t put my finger on. In alignment, with one self. In alignment to the ideas and virtues of my own life. Who am I?
Are we at all experiencing life? Are we all…. Aren’t we all experiencing life now? I’m stuck in my past and stuck in my future. It’s time to move on. Pass the early failures pass the late successes. Where is my goal now?




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